midnight mumblings

i’m so tired of mediocre, of people hurting me, never being there for me, never having anyone when i need someone most.  the few people i had saw it get rough and ran the fuck out on me.  everyone expects apologies, me to kiss their asses before they give me anything.  i give so much, i try so hard to hard to be everything people need and when they’re needed they’re too busy or they have someone too much more important than me to bother with my problems.  i get the whole give to get thing, but i literally have nothing more to give and i have gotten jack.